unrequited

  there is a guy i've known for a while~ maybe.. a year and nine months? smth like that. and from the first day i actually sat down and spoke with him, i realised that he liked me. that was in january~ last year~

  last year~ maybe, half way through? he asked me out. i declined and said i didn't like him~ it hurt to say that to him. ._.~

  recently there was a scout camp i went on~ and before that on facebook, he said he wanted to talk to me. so on the camp he was talking to me and bleh and afohiuafk he asked where it left him and i said that i thought it left him with an unrequited crush and i know it sounds mean but it didn't sound like that at all in person >_<

at least i hope so~~

  and then today~ he sent me a message on facebook~ he said he knows i don't like him and stuff but he just wanted to get his feelings across

and when i read the rest of the message i very nearly cried

i was venting about it to a friend but what i rly want is a hug ._.~

  i just feel so horrible~

  i wanna diiiieee~ 

  wonder what it's like to drown.